The two items above should NEVER occur within the same week! But it happens and it happened this week. My Gastroparesis is NOT happy with it and is proving a point. Stomach cramping, vomiting, fatigue, the whole nine yards of exciting GP fun paid me a visit this week. Needless to say it was not a fun week and I am hoping beyond hope that the weather has chosen a season & temperature to stick with. (I’m hoping for fall because it is my favorite!)
I know of others with Gastroparesis that have exceptional flair ups when the weather changes, so I think that there is something to it. I think that there must be some type of connection. Someone once told me that it has to do with the barometric pressure and how that pressure affects our internal organs. I really have no idea if this is true or not, but it seems as good of answer as any.
As I rotated between the bathroom and laying with my heating pad, I had so many different thoughts going through my head. “Why is this happening to me again, I thought that I was on a good path?” “Why did some of my ‘friends’ disappear and say hurtful things when I got so sick?” “Why do people not understand that this is serious & I’m not just being a whiny wimp?” “Why…Why…Why…Why…?”
Then it dawned on my that asking all of these negative questions was not helping matters. So I wiped my eyes, turned up my heating pad, got doggie kisses from my faithful nurse (aka my doggie Leela) and decided I would focus on the positive. I started to tell myself “You haven’t had a flair up this bad in months, the changes you have made in your life are working.” “Look at all of the amazing friends who have stuck by you & check on you.” “Look at the amazing man in your life who would do anything to help you.” “Look at the positivity that you are giving the GP community with a blog that you didn’t think anyone would read.” “Look at the Personal Best in a Half Marathon earlier this year.” “Look at the fact that you were able to even complete a half marathon.” “Look at the fact that you did two half marathons.” Then I started to turn around. I started to feel better and more mentally tough. I started to get my fight back. I started to say…take that GP…I WILL get off the couch today and I WILL get something done.
As I have said numerous times on this blog, I feel the most important thing during a Gastroparesis flair is to set a goal (no matter how small) and to accomplish it. Then say…Take that Gastroparesis! You may have won the battler, but you will NOT win the war!! So I set a goal of loading the dishwasher (there were all of 5 dishes in the sink) and I did it. This of course required a nap, but I went to sleep knowing that I did something and the day wasn’t an entire waste!
No matter how good we are doing, Gastroparesis always seems a way to find us. However, it is so important to focus on anything positive and try hard not to fall into a negative loop! Of course, this is easier said than done, but it is important to train your brain to make the shift. It doesn’t come natural and will take some training, but I promise if you work at it that you can retrain your brain!
I have to say I held a pity party for my self yesterday, I’ve had a pretty good couple of months and out of nowhere, blasted again 😦 bring positive and fighting back is the best choice I could have made, versus crying and complaining (which is so easy to do)! Thanks for you’re post!
Great attitude Colleen!
Keep up that positive attitude, because you are exactly right. Negativity will not help at all!
I have missed MIlle’s posts! I am so glad to read this today, from my daughter’s hospital room, as she has had her worst flare in a year. It came out of NOWHERE a week ago. Even her last emptying study, just done in July, came back significantly improved. Back in school for the first time in 3 years! Then, wham!…
Thank you thank you for helping me to feel less crazy.
Hope that your daughter finds some relief! Don’t worry, you are not crazy & you are definitely not alone!
I need to get back on the blogging wagon! (I plan to do it soon.)
There might be something to the barometric pressure theory. When there is a drastic change in the pressure I get horrible migraines. It might also have something to do with why arthritis sufferers can feel when it is getting cold or when it is going to rain. My husband has arthritis, so we are quite a pair when the weather changes. Thanks for the reminder to keep positive during the tough times.
Hang in there!
I just finished my internship in the PNW and had a flare-up this past week (I came back to the East last night). It used to be a year in between flares, then it was down to six months, and now it seems to be every two months now… I was doing so well for so long… I also have arthritis in my back and I know that it has flared up before in the past from temperature changes… the frustrating thing is trying to tell people that your GP flares and symptoms can change monthly and daily… cry, let it out, and then like you said, focus on the positive! Thank you again for understanding us and keeping this blog! 🙂
Sorry to hear that the flair ups are occurring & sorry for my hiatus the post few months!
Time for me to get back on the blogging wagon! 🙂
I seem to be better again, and thank you, Millie! You deserve the break you had, also to recharge!
All the best the rest of this month!
Glad to hear that you are doing better Jen!